Surviving...
It’s been a while since I felt inspired to write. I’ve avoided it for a while because, well it was 2020. Enough said. But lately I’ve been pulled to write more and it’s a goal I have for 2021. I have always viewed my blog as a way to showcase what I am learning because I am doing the work right alongside you. Often, I can correlate what I am learning with something you may be experiencing as well. And maybe that will be the case today.
Recently, I have felt weighted down. Buried in work and life and feeling like maybe I wasn’t doing either right. It was heavy. Stressful. Scary. The feelings I had were ones I had never experienced before and it took a little bit to acknowledge it and honor the emotions because they were very real.
2020 was a HARD year in so many ways beyond the pandemic. One saving grace for me was music. Music has always been my go-to in any and all instances. I leverage music to motivate me when exercising; to help me process my feelings; and to just feel something. Often, I can connect with the lyrics in a way that inspires me, motivates me, etc. I’ve written about songs that made an impact to me. I have shared songs with clients and friends to help them connect in some way. And often, a song will be on constant repeat for a period of time. And lately I’ve had one playing over and over on my Spotify playlist.
It’s called ‘Survivin’ by Bastille. (listen here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PmPNW1_LuaI).
The song is powerful in many ways and resonated with me about how this year has gone down. Here is the chorus that speaks right to my soul.
And I'm not gonna lie, say I've been alright.
'Cause it feels like I've been livin’ upside down.
What can I say? I'm survivin’.
Crawlin' out these sheets to see another day.
What can I say? I'm survivin'.
And I'm gonna be fine, I'm gonna be fine. I think I'll be fine
If I am honest with myself, my family, friends and community, the last year was a struggle. Somedays I have felt like I am barely keeping my head above water. Just going through the motions was hard. And I am guessing it may have been for you (actually I know because I have talked to so many others about this lately and they have said they are in the same place).
Even in the midst of a year that seemed to try and take many of us down, we survived. It wasn’t easy. And it’s not over. There is a lot in front of us and 2021 is filled with uncertainty mixed with HOPE. Hope that soon we will be out of this pandemic. Hope that our world will move forward. Hope for kindness and love to lead our actions. Hope for a year that is filled with joy, laughter, excitement, memories and some amazing experiences we haven’t even dreamed of yet! And hope that if you are feeling heavy like me, we will come out the other side stronger than before.
I’m going to remind myself that I’ll be fine. And I’m going to continue listening to the song on repeat!
Bring it on 2021-I’m ready to kick some ass. How about you?
To your continued growth, development, and amazing potential,
Lisa
